Mark will "unofficially" end his career with the Army as of January 29, 2010. I am very nervous for that day.
I am a planner and sometimes that really tends to get in the way. I am scared to death of leaving the Army and not really knowing what the future holds for us.
We have two options at this point (well actually come December, but either way).
He can stay in the Army another 4 years, choose a new job and see where that takes us. (Probably not back to Colorado, just so you CO people know:) In the meantime our family will have to be seperated at least another 6 months as I finish school here in TX next May. There is always the possiblity of deployment, which at this point seems to be the deterring factor. (In case you haven't noticed, we haven't exactly had good luck in that area).
Then there is the option of seeking employment. Saying goodbye to the Army life, no more deployments, our family can finally be together for good.
The choice seems easy, but really, it seemed much easier 15mo ago when it didn't feel like someone had as much chance of winning the lottery then getting and keeping a job. Ok, well maybe not that hard, but really what do I know. I am not currently looking for a job, so I really don't know how hard it is. I just know it is a difficult choice.
I want to stay here, finish school and work here. And in a couple of years build on our land. But then I wonder if that is what is really in the plans. Is this what we are supposed to do?
It seems like this decision is one of the hardest we will have to make. We are at a point where we are DONE with the military. We have delt with enough (3 deployments in 6 years). But I guess this is part of War.
I have been praying for months about this decision. Assuming God would place a big blinking neon sign pointing to the correct direction. Either I am going the wrong way and just haven't seen the sign (and I promise, I am looking), or it just isn't there. I am beginning to think it is the later. But again, what do I know.
I am sure no one else has the answers for us, I am sure everyone want's to see us do what makes us happy, or what is right for our family. That's what I want to.
AAAWWWWWWWWW! Just needed to get that off my chest.