I am ready...

for tomorrow. i think
what if we have have not taught her all of the life skills she needs thus far?
will she talk to much?
will she not talk enough?
will she remember her teachers name?
will she smile when I see her in the hall or will she pretend she does not know me?
what if her heart is sad when I walk away from the door?
what if my heart is sad when I walk away from the door?

i will do fine.
more importantly, she will do fine. no. she will do great!
i can feel it in my (sad) heart.

tomorrow our (oldest) baby girl starts kindergarten and we are ready.
We have done our best to glorify Christ is the raising of our oldest daughter thus far and i have no doubt He will continue to be glorified as she walks into that classroom tomorrow.

this is my prayer for our sweet Jillian.

Here we go, Lord.

Her backpack is loaded and her face is scrubbed and her
teeth are hopefully brushed.
And I know you'll walk with her, Lord. You always do.
But a mom still has to ask.

Will You walk with her?
Will You whisper to her what she needs to hear, when I'm not there to whisper it?

Will You please, oh please, cover her school with the protection only
You can give, and will You keep harm far away?

Will You make her mind strong and ready to learn?
Will You help her understand that hard work honors the One who created her?

Will You guide her teachers, giving them patience and
wisdom and creativity and more patience?
Will You bless them for their efforts?

Will You love all those children there,
the ones whose lunch accounts aren't full,
the ones who feel alone?
Will You teach my child to be kind and unselfish
and to love those who are different from her?


Will You point her back toward home just as soon as you can?
Lord, I give her to You today and everyday, trusting her to Your care.
In Jesus' name, Amen.