NOW this is just the plain truth: I am NOT cut out for this stay at home momma stuff!
Let me start by saying that I love my children dearly and I love raising them, watching them interact and learn new things, and I love being with them. But not 24 hours a day. I am exhausted!
When Jillian was about 6 months old I became a stay at home mom and LOVED it! We joined a playgroup with other relatively new moms, we met lots of baby 'friends'. It was just fun.
Then when Emma was born I went back to staying home full time again. I loved it then too..although much more work. But I still had a lot of mom friends (with new babies too) and we would sulk our sorrows in sippy cups at the mall play area.
Now my girls are 4.5 and 2 and I am back to being a full time stay at home mom...temporarily I might add, but still the same work.
My brain is fried.
I feel like a robot.
Get up...mostly to abrupt whiny voices.
Turn on Micky Mouse.
Prepare breakfast...nothing fancy this early.
Bring out the wooden spoon...only a warning at this point.
Drink 1st Dr. Pepper of the day.
And it's only 9:00.
You have GOT to be kidding me.
The girls are at an age where they bicker, non stop.
"She hit me"
"Sister hit me"
"Gotta go potty"
Cry, cry, cry..tears, tears, tears.
These are the things that could drive any mom to drink.
Well, not really.
I really love my girls and the times we have together. I just look forward to the time when there are bigger gaps between those times.
I am almost sure these feelings are not uncommon (at least I hope not). I am not less of a mother for feeling these things. I am just exhauted.